You got this far. Well done as so many before you have fled at their own fears
Do you know or understand what it is like to live "out of Culture"?
I live in an environment that in some manner works like this. The crimes committed against me occurred / existed in a religious concept/environment. I do not hold with or believe in religious doctrines or dogmas; I simply want to base what I am dealing with on my knowledge, my experience and what I can understand along with any evidence that I can provide or that science has already researched and is satisfied with at the moment of their understanding or not of a phenomena as opposed to an environment where I must meet all the myriad of the occult expectations of others right through the system.
Police, health, community, government have all drawn their religious supporters and had their systems designed over decades based on the best that their religious indoctrination could produce. I am left with the onerous task of attempting to navigate that via the world of magical expectations that I simply cannot ever be able to meet the un-stated always moving targets and goals of such a system simply because it has been based on mythology and superstition and nowhere is there a part or a place that will permit the facts, reality and the real world of no superstition, no mythology just the reality that we get to live in.
If you want to keep us alive simply provide us with genuine secular pathways through government systems.
we would love to help you personally BUT .... our hands are tied ..... you don't fit the invisible criteria list .... you are the wrong colour ... wrong religion .... wrong gender ... wrong age ... Why can't you be just like me and suffer delusions over mythical gods creating everything including jobs ...... blah blah ....
Human rights are not and can never be respected while a child or adult's life is trapped by the claimed will or word of an unaccountable blackmailing God.
"The Christian religion creates an environment where the child must bend and fold to the experience, the child must distort and fracture its own personality simply so that it may continue to survive in the environment in which it finds itself" JohnB